Haiz... Tomorrow is the beginning of my poly life. One side, I can't wait to start, and the other side, I want to wait a little longer... But we have to get started sooner or later. Um, I have prepared everything I need for school. I'm just super nervous. LOL. I'm not sure if they have ragging in nyp, like what I see in the tamil movies. I hope not, because I don't want to have to get to know my seniors that way. Oh my.... I'm suddenly having butterflies in my stomach...
I'm officially going to leave the memories I had previously behind. That is the only way I can move on... So much has happened already, and I hope you know that I'm talking about you. I can't believe you have hidden so much from me... Its really hurting, but sadly, you are my family and I will have to forget all these, and move on. Sisters... ~ Maybe school would help me forget the things, and maybe school would help me forget how you look like... Maybe, I don't have to see you at all. Did you even consider me when you always spoke about her... You were all over her yesterday. I felt that you could have showed her more love than you could have showed me. Fathers...
I hate to admit it, but I know you love her more than me. Sometimes I try to pacify myself saying that you show her your love because she doesn't live with you. But then... Its not the fact... I wish you could show 1% of the love you show to her, to me. I feel so deprived... Deprived of the fatherly love that you should show to me...
I'm not being myself lately... I'm not jealous, but I'm a deprived kid! Bad child hood. Unhappy past. Despite all that, I have a smile... I try to let it go. But you are not letting me. Bitter moments dad!
