I can choose not to listen to her, or maybe I could. Either way, its not my fault that I ended up with that course right? If this was God's will, then changing it could really end the wrong way. Anyway I've left it in God's hands. And I'm not going to listen to anyone! Men is a mere hindrance and discouragement.
This year there were so many things that affected me!! Firstly my O level results, in a good way at first. But when I was doing my JAE appeal, I realised that there was a huge mistake in the points thingy and i got super bummed and pissed. Then the part where my best friend had a boy friend and totally felt everyone around her was invisible. Then the part when my best friend had her first kiss with that idiot!!! Then the part when I ended it with my best friend of almost 5 years. Then the JAE posting results... The JAE posting results really bummed me terribly. I mean it was a dream!!! People had already made booking in advance for advice in case they got depressed or mentally ill. And I had to let them down!!! After that I became sensitive to everything around me. I felt myself crying for the most smallest issue. And I felt so rejected. Like God let me down!!! And some people made me feel better by telling me that God has his plans of prospering me and there is something that he wants me to achieve by doing this course. And then there are MANY people, who say things like, what future do you have in IT? what are you going to learn there, blah blah blah. But, I know its for the best. *Sigh* I think its for the best...
Anyway last week I worked at J8 for about 4 days. Then I got the news that this whole week I'll be at J8 as well. Aiya!! But its near for me, just that J8 is so small and it very open making it possible for heavy human traffic and business. Aiyo... Today I almost got myself into a mess with an Ahlian. Whaa. Thank God for being with me. She left after a while when she knew I wasn't listening to her. Gosh!! Another reason why I hate J8 is because its near the schools and ITE. And people from the ITE usually test my patience.
Today I had fun with Marcelle and Sheng Yang. Crap la these two. LOL.
Oh and my ex best friend was made to come to J8. Happens so that she got chased back to PS again. Thank God for not having me to speak to her. I have gone through so much in this relationship and I'm glad it had to end. Sometimes I wonder why people are in a relationship that is hurtful and horrible!!
Mum and Dad are going to India in about 12 days!!! Argh!! I'm so going to miss my Mummy!!! She really was calm when I went through the difficult time. She was beside me and even though she knew I was not going to listen to her, she still talked to me. She kissed me and made me feel better during that low days. And I'm going to miss her hugs. For 2 whole weeks she would be gone!!! For 2 whole weeks I can't see her face!!! For 2 whole weeks I'll be going through hell without her!!! For 2 whole weeks I will not have my personal hair stylist. For 2 whole weeks I'll be lost without my dearest Mummy!!! For 2 whole weeks there will be no one to control me!! For 2 whole weeks there will be no one to tuck me into bed, kiss me in the morning and hug me when I'm down! For 2 whole weeks I'll be living without Mummy. To be relieved of the fact that I'm coming to a home without my Mum in it, I'm going to work full shift for the two weeks she would be gone. Her flight is for 15th Feb, 10pm and she would come back on March after she settles the land matters. I'm excited in a way too. My mum just got a land in India, and once I've finished studying they can start the construction works. It's going to be a 3-4 floor landed property and I got the liberty of decorating my own room!! Woohoo!! Still I'm sad that I can't get to see all my relatives and all those little cousins of mine. Those cutie pies. Anyway my mum is bringing my camera, so i hope she takes images of them! LOL. And that big land too. LOL. Its sad my Mum is leaving me behind. There will be no one to do up a hairstyle for me. All I know is that one and only pony tail that has not been cooperating with me nowadays. MUMMY!!!
Well I'm really hoping to get to NYP. So that I will have Teeya & Sally Salleh. Oh and Reuben who is in year 2 can help me with school stuff. And I really hope that I can start to click with some people. I need friends!!! I need social life!!! I need to forget about her and move on!! Aiya, I also have a teeny, tiiny wish that there are cute guys around. LOL. And maybe one will ask me out. LOL. I could sneak out for once without my mum knowing I think. Haha. I will never dare!
Tomorrow I'm finally meeting my clown Pei Ying. She is at J8 tomorrow and I can crap about with her. Haha.
Oh and Melody Montano! I got your letter and your super cute earrings. I'm going to wear them on my first day of school with my whole new wardrobe. LOL. LYLAS.
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Hi Veni!! i'm glad you like the earrings :D You should take a pic of you on your first day of school so I can see :D Hope things there are getting better! Take care <3 You rock! <3 love ya lots!! Melody
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