yup back to post real soon. i can't help but comment on someone's attitude today. yes i was mad at him, i mean please la, you seriously had changed then you started blaming other people saying that they affected you. man then the emo word so suited you. you became so unreasonable to everyone else and to me too. you blocked from your msn for whatever reason that i can't be bothered with... i said it was amusing how you felt that i had severed all ties with you and you asked about the time when i pretended as if you did not exsist. and then i said that you should know me by now that i get mad and this was another day of waking up on the other side of the bed. *not that i am supersitious, its just a phrase for saying that things happened to go wrong*. and i added that i was back to my senses. you replied back saying that you were watching gundam and yeah it was like everything was back to normal, it today i realised that you had blocked me. great thing to do dude. im not mad at you. i just think that maybe ive been trying so hard to keep all my friendships last, that i often i don't think about the party. so maybe its my fault? i dunno.
i was having a conversation with dear kenneth today and somehow he made me realise certain things. maybe just one. he said something about winning arguments and loosing friends. he said if a person wants to win in an argument let him do so. to lose that argument is better than loosing a friend. and all of a sudden my silly mistakes came to me. i have always been trying to win in arguments that sometimes i nearly lost a friend or two. like instances when i fight with kenneth. i always argue with him and one way or another at one point, he stops talking. its like he lost the whole argument and i won. sometime later we become friends again. its like part and parcel of my life. i realised that if any of my friend would want to argue, i'll just let em. kenneth went on saying that it hurts when we loose in an argument so we would have to bear with it. and i told him that loosing an argument is nothing like loosing a friend. and poor kenneth had to bear with loosing an argument and loosing a friend with the most pathetic attitude. all the while, i always thought that it was me who had the pathetic attitude. here i am changing it thanks to some great friends and there goes one from good to bad. bad to worse. worse to deteriorated. for the sake of the majority of the friend population, i bear with this and yes, im going to smile and talk to him the way i used to. and im not going to let anything get in the way.
thanks kenneth. for all the times you lost in the argument. you could have won easily, but it would have meant loosing me. but you made the right choice and im glad you're my friend. heck to those who dunno how to treat you. heck to the unreasonable person. still he is our friend. and life goes on. good luck tomorrow. and thanks again, for showing me how to be happy even though the fight is lost. it is after all an incomprehensible world right?
& thanks to all the great attitudes and secrets that goes inside a mind.
