♥Thursday, May 01, 2008 ' 7:28 PM ♥
Awesome. ♥

I’ve been loosing my cool a lot nowadays.
These few days my mum says that I am not myself.
I’m not so sure why.
But I think I haven’t found myself
It’s so hard figuring out who I am and what I am expected to do.
There is no purpose for me sometimes I feel
It’s like not use and all I want is enough time
Lots of time to live things out the way I want it to be.
I haven’t been smiling lately either, or laughing.
Early in the morning there was a funny sitcom and I failed to laugh
I went to church this morning and my tambourine dance leader also failed to make me laugh
What more I went to dinner with Prem and Lionel and even they failed to make me laugh.
Everyone found things difficult.
I’m so lost.
I haven’t found myself or my purpose of living.
If I don’t find it soon then I doubt that everything will go according to plan.
It’s my English exam tomorrow and I’m not very sure what to expect.
I might not even be able to get ready for the paper at this rate.
I hope I will be able to find out myself by tonight
Or I don’t think that studying will help me at all.