♥Wednesday, May 28, 2008 ' 1:57 AM ♥
Awesome. ♥
it is going to be 2am soon.
and im glad tat pradeep has allowed me to use his laptop.
though its going to be 2am in the morning, the house feels like its only 7pm.
so many buzzing ard.
i really wanted to blog now so that i will remember today.
after my post last evening *about 8 hours ago* i went to church for my cell group.
all the time i kept to myself bt the church members did not allow it to happen.
the news of bringing my cousin into christ minutes before he died caused alot of commotion.
people were all so proud and came to shake my hand, some comforted me with a hug or two.
pastor kept looking at me incase i broke down all of a sudden *truth was i had been shedding tears*.
it had been an unexpected death.
and pastor spoke to me in his office.
he said he understood how i felt and that sometimes somethings had to come to an end.
he was proud that even through the difficult time when his family was not in christ and when everyone was in midst of pain i managed to pull through a prayer.
he said that many people would have been mad at me for the deed i had done.
bt i could not be bothered.
uncle manzy allowed me to keep my belongings in his car.
which meant i did not have to leave it over at pradeep's house.
pastor came along but left soon when he got an urgent phone call he did say that he wil conduct the funeral service on thursday and he also told all teh church members to be present.
after he left i managed to get a good look at everything.
vishnu's coffin was white in colour with a golden cross engraved.
he was dressed like a groom.
he was layed on white cloth and had his hand clenched together as if he was praying.
a lone white rose was stuffed into his coat pocket.
he looked so handsome.
25 years old and he had to meet with such a tragic accident.
man i loved him so much
alot of people were present.
martin and mike jus made it awhile ago. staying over at late vishnu's home
their parents will be coming in tml. will be staying in hotel
aunty mary butlet from london also made it with her 2 daughters, son in law and a grand daughter and a grandson. *her original name was mahalakshmi, eldest daughter from my father's side. became a christian got married to a white man then divorced him, dunno why* planned to stay in a hotel.
dad's other brother from australia made it too with his wife and 2 daughters and is staying over at grandma's place.
and yes all the rest of the families had arrived.
every single one of my dad's siblings, relatives,cousins.
why even my step brothers and sister made it.
all except my dad.
reason??
he got drunk...
mum called me at 10plus and told me that he is drunk...
does all this hav to happen now.
all i can expect is that for the nest few days he is going to stir up fights, stop going to work, drink and drink and drink.
he is injecting insulin into his body and even at this time he has lost his mind.
everyone was asking about him...
what could i say?
he is working?? *people will think he only cares abt himself?*
he got drunk?? *they would still speak ill of him*
bt i must thank uncle manzy for covering up everything.
no one knows except me and uncle manzy but now i bet my cousins would be reading it and they would find out.
so please cousins.
anything but this.
don't speak a word.
all cousins seemed dressed up for a party.
jashvitha is wearing something like a pyjamas. *sleepover party right?*
donald is wearing his t shirt with bemudas *beach party*
andrea and jessica were wearing flowery dresses. *prom night?*
shindhu is wearing a red top with blue jeans *casual, she is so in with me*
vignesh is wearing a formal white top with black pants. *came back from work*
lionel wore a formal white shirt with black jeans. *he expected everyone else to be formal*
pheobe was a white blouse with a blue skirt. *dinner date?*
pradeep was wearing a black t shirt with jeans *bt changed to a green t shirt
when i reinforced the fact that it was a christian funeral not a hindhu one* *green week i suppose*
and me??
a blue t shirt with black jeans.
i was no ready to be so solemn but i did look like one.
no one cried like me seriously.
adults had things to do so they left us to do shifts with vishnu.
i certainly did not need shifts.
i stayed there for the longest time while the 5 of them along with joshua and jareed took turns coming down for an hour.
my shift officially started at 3.30am because we only started our shift at 11.30 when the hall was much quieter.
well now im sure jessica and andrea are having their turn but something tells me that the guys are keeping them company.
mike and martin wanted to come down during my shift becoz i volunteered to stay till 6.30 then get ready for school.
everyone agreed becoz after 3.30am they would be able to get sleep.
but by 6.30 mike and martin's parents would be in so probably they would come in to see vishnu.
which means i will get to freshen up to get to sch.
i guess i would start doing my amaths homework. *i haven't started it*
then maybe finish my harry potter and the order of the pheonix.
man life is not so simple!!!
i have to worry abt mum and how she wd be putting up with dad.
atleast i would not have to go home till thursday once the cremation is done.
i am so going to have dark circles under my eyes becoz i slept late on monday night *around 1am?* then woke up at around 4 *which means i had less than 3 hours of sleep* and today i haven't even gotten a wink of sleep.
uncle manzy gave me his duplicate car keys incase i wanted to get some sleep *the house is holding too much people already*
the master bedroom is not personal anymore.
all the infant monkeys and irritating pests and being held in the room while vishnu's room and pradeep's room is holding 14teens altogether.
all the parents are holding up in the guest room and living room.
so many matresses are all over the place.
why even the kitchen is holding up people.
uncle david a snorer is on the dining table.
man he is not the only snorer, even the ladies here sound horrible.
its so difficult to move around.
now i think i better get moving downstairs so that would be able to have some more time with vishnu.
i dn think i can bathe tml so dear friend if u see me in sch tml keep a distance.
it is going to be a long day tml and won't be back till 6plus.
hope atleast then the place has cleared all the friends so that we can hav jus the family fun *bt family fun is not the main importance. its my shower tat i look forward to having after the latest one which i had on sunday afternoon* *i know. i should stink badly, bt i dn't. victoria secrets perfume has shown its use, thanks andrea*
and i hope that vishnu does not smell.
im keeping his branded perfume in arm's reach jus in case.
I know that im so nice to lend you my laptop, but next time for own safety do not leave the laptop unattened even if you are going for a shower.
Don not leave it unattended especially if you have so many nosy cousins.
Love Pradeep
You owe me a proper greeting and also an explanation on why you did not give me some of the sandwich my mum made for you this morning.
You know how much I love her sandwiches.
Mike
Haha.
I know i was wearing pyjamas.
Actually it was more like a costume.
You know how foolish i can be right?
Anyway Im glad to see you after so long.
Jashvitha
HeyHey.
It was a last minute preparation like anyone else.
I mean look at Jashvitha who ended up wearing pyjamas.
She had no idea what to expect and yeah same thing happened to me.
Atleast I did not turn up like a clown like Jashvitha right?
Sleepover party for her??
Man she is too old for that,
Beach party sounds reasonable.
Donald the Duck
you should be glad andrea hasn't seen it yet.
actually she sugested that we wear flowery dresses.
she wanted to lighten the mood.
bt i think you know what happened after the lighten mood talk.
Jessica
yeah yeah i expected everyone else to be formal.
hav only gone for funeral services/wakes but not something that lasts for quite a long time.
and i never expected this to happen to out brother.
lionel.
if you are wondering why we are coming on in sequence, that's coz we r reading it such.
you know that even thought i maybe a christian my parents aren't.
they maybe the only two in our whole family tree bt sometimes i feel that we hav to respect their thoughts too.
anyway i was so happy that bro accepted christ.
this means i can tell my parents abt my secret identity in christ.
that i accepted him long ago and i had been hiding it frm them.
imagine their fury huh.
thanks a lot veni.
atleast we managed to save brother before it was too late.
Pradeep
Feels great to be in singapore.
Man I missed the heat...
Anyway the guys forced me to comment on your blog.
Do i look like i have a choice??
Aparently i don't...
That is why my comment sounds lame.
Joshua
Then again. Neither do I have a choice. I was being forced to comment when I have no idea whet to say. Is there a chance for these guys to be punished under the child abuse act? Its called forcing an innocent child to do something against his will. Anyway had a great shower I hope??
Jareed
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