Like its so nt over yet...
u noe how uninterested i can get with all this sweet&stupid talk...
so let me move on...
its not goin to work...
im not mad...
actually i dn care abt it at all...

It was tough to keep looking at in whenever i kept comin in out of my room
i mean it was the centre of attraction n even though i felt like breakin it i still cld nt bring myself to it...
my mum said that it was no use keepin it there...
she said it wld bring back memories...
& im like so confused abt wat to do with it...

seriously ive nt been havin the mood today bt hey i love sch...
n its like the last few days for me n i hav to be happy...
atleast for the council...

i kinda broke my hand during PE today...
we were playing netball using a basketball and a soccer net as the goal post...
so much complications...
i volunteered to be goal keeper n when the ball was coming i tried to hit it away...
the only thing left was a right hand that bended backwards and in conclusion caused so much pain...
i felt so bad...
esp becoz we were havin a netball game with woodgrove...
during recess i went to the toilet n cried...
i asked god why bad things happen to me and why me??
i told him tat i wanted to play...
n it meant that my hand had to become better...
after saying my prayers i felt better n so did my hand...
bt not so good...

so positive i flunked my emaths graph test coz my stuff were all over the place...
qian ru had my one n onli pencil n my ruler, jian feng had my eraser and my curve ruler...
by the time they fnished i had no time...
not their fault anyway coz i was too depressed to do it...

netball was goin great in the 1st quater against woodgrove...
we were leading by 2...
then i swapped with umairah in the 2nd quater...
3rd quater was not so bad with me in again...
4th quater i expected umairah to go in again bt mr.tamil told me to stay...
we were doin well bt i kept thinkin of my hand n *something* else till i missed maybe 7-8 balls overall...
well im glad yuling was there...
she umpired the game n she prayed for my hand too...
in the end we lost 16-20...
sad isnt it...
bt as always we move on...
n im thanking god that its only a friendly match n nt the sch's challenge league..

after the game we had so much fun in the counil room...
all of a sudden the relationship topic popped up n i tried to stay calm...
we were jus fooling ard...
me, rey, kenneth, cai ning, tracia, abby & aloysious...
whaa we were very lame...
kenneth said he likes a girl *i noe who she is*
n aloysious was like hey u like my sister
n abby cld nt help bt point out that he liked her too
bt she dumped him...
lol...
rejected is more like it...
so i started to talk...

*hey how come she's yr sister ah?? u liked her be4 what...its jus like saying u get married n have sex with yr wife then when u get divorced u say that she's yr sister* haha it was funny the way they reacted...
went home with all of em except rey n kenneth coz they left earlier...
tracia started pinching aloysious' cheek n aloy asked me if he can pinch mine n i was like *he's my senior* n was like okok...
he pinched me not so bad...
whaa bt tracia pinch me not like pinching...
she got hold of my cheeks n twisted then down...
so all the way till the mrt we kept playing a fool...

aloy went home alone...
tracia n cai ning went together
then i n abby went togther in another direction...
i did hav fun today...
these ppl made my day n im happy they did...

pulau ubin trip is confirmed this saturday...
the whole ex co + benson, aidil, qian ru, kenneth...
so we will go for normal lesson
then wear the red shirt which we stole from the council room...
not exactly steal la...
we distributed it out...
it was the sec3's camp tshirt which *thankGod* had no markings of anythin tat said sec3 camp lol...
so yeah with 2boxes of extra shirts we decided to wear em so that we wld look similar...
so on sat we meet ard 12.00
hav lunch
then go pulau ubin for cycling
leave ard 5.00
come back for dinner...
so its a great outing...
its gonna be fun so im reservin all my EMOness till i step down


im tired now...
n im done with hearing the sentence which said *u were too hasty*
well if its my fault then let it be...
sometimes some things r fate n i think it sucks...
i wasn't saying fate sucks...
i said u suck...
if im hasty let me be...
i guess u were jus freed...