right i knew from the beginning u were hinting at me... yes i wanted to noe bt i cared also... never said you were the bad one... it jus happened so people make me feel that way... frankly neither do u noe the whole thing... i wasn't acting as i knew everything... really if u knew she hurt u then why stay on... its nt worth it you know... i felt everything goin wrong these few days... ppl looked at me as if i was the reason... come on get back to reality wld ya... i noe yr look... u kept ignoring me... fine la... ignore me... u still noe yr being loved...
ytd my 3 girls gave up their tie... i wld not wan to say were terminated... coz i still dn feel its their fault... they were jus taken advantage of...
jian wen had more problems coming his way... he made more girls cry what more sec 1 girls... aiyo i felt so sorry for the girl la...
rey as usual made me angry... well i dunno wat for... bt we all noe "veni" the girl who gets sensitive...
furthermore there were so many other things tat were hurtful... i seriously did not get to make my own decisions... i noe he needs me... bt he had to understand... i needed to make my own choices and i felt this was the best for me how could u?? how can u tell me what was important and wat wasn't... i wanted to be there... and to think u went against my decision to tell me this was what i needed... F*** You la... u noe how i felt... did u nt even get a hint wat i really wanted is it me or is it you?? really cld u nt have been thoughtful...
i cried... yes i did... becoz i felt empty without you... u noe now i need you... maybe u wld help me?? help me work things out with him... so tat i wld nt hate him... so that i cld be closer to u... u noe it means so much to me... help me... i believe in miracles and i do noe tat u can make them... so as i sit silently waiting for u... help me...
somone told me tat u hated me so much... im not selfish am i?? maybe u jus hav to look at it differently... i jus did nt wan u to get hurt... so it had to be such...
met a very nice guy... he seemed to know my feelings and we shared the same thoughts i guess i still am nt ready for a relationship... so i'll jus get to know him...
went to church for cleaning... after that went to eat at shop where we met angel's father... we recongised them and the was guy nice enough to pay for our food... wow stanley praying for the food really payed off... sadly we did nt hav enough money so when we ordered we ordered less and we did nt even buy drink bt after tat we bought drink n be4 we knew it it was paid for... i and reuben went smack on the head... is only we knew tat he was paying we wld hav bought more... lol
then the rest of the time went on havin fun bt i kinda did nt feel too close too them emoness overcame me again... i felt so horrible... aiyo...
