ahhh... everyone has been fucked up becoz of me... almost eveyone... recently ive been becomin terrible emo... i dunno why... well jus wanted to say somethings... mostly it has to be sorries...
im sorry u 3... i really love u gals... covered up alot to keep ya in... bt its not in my hands now... sorry u cried bf... u noe i love u 3 so much... no face to show u gals anymore...
im really sorrie jian feng that everytime im emo i carry out my anger on you... i forced you to get a me chocolates and i always spoke hurtful words to you... im really sorri... yr a nice guy i was jus to emo... im really sorry my dear grp... if i had been too hard im sorry... bt its for the best of the council... i knew tat the council might end up goin down... i need u ppl to stay strong n set a great example... bear with me for a few days ok... i really sorry gal for hurting yr feelings... i noe it was hard takin my words... im glad we settled it out... hey n gd job with yr CH work hard and beat the rest... im sorry to u too... coz im floating away... i dn really like wat u did to hurt my 3 friends... we may talk still bt the bitterness remains... now and forever i will rmb the good times we had bt its a sin what u did... im sorry cai ning tat sometimes i treat u like watever... bt u always noe tat u make me better... sorry im emo... im sorry to all the ppl whom ive shouted at... im jus emo... and im sensitive... and i hate to be tested... and finally... im sorry to myself... for being such a sensitive person... being treated like shit... nt being respected bein taken for granted... well i guess im done with my sorry list... i jus think these few days were too emotional... i cld nt believe it when my 3 friendies were supp to be terminated... and SY had to be considered... i mean please... these 3 are so much better than her... when it comes to council they giv their 100% ive seen them around more often then SY... bt i guess whatever is done has been done n cannot be undone... bt the pain tat was caused... arghh its so freeking... i feel so fucked up... which happens always...
i jus want to step down from my CCA's soon NPCC is 9 April 2008 i dn feel like continuing for CI or whatever... ive lost my bond with npcc... coz no one respects me... my juniors act as if they are higher than me... wtf am i not more senior than u?? who do u think u are rulling over me?? i dn even wan to look at yr face bt what to do?? i have to...
netball has been quite an enriching experience more so becoz ppl RESPECT me even though mistakes were made... my juniors are so sweet... not tat my npcc juniors are not... bt i think netball had been manging well... still im quite nervous abt my selection trial which is on 15 march 08 fact is many frm spore sports sch wld be present... n if i dn jump... my life is n career is gone
sch was ok... my common test 1 was well done... i PASSED all my subjects so far... left with physics... which im nt so confident...
