well today met abby n she told me tat writting on my blog abt veeky wld hurt veeky...well i guess she was trying 2 support him....i felt hurt tat even my best friend was supportin him n suspecting me....i told her tat it huts me...well i msg cai ning abt it...got to school and cai ning told me she was still mad at tracia....ok....well then i really felt tat best friends wld not suspect each other....n the way abby behaved i thought she did....so i told her it was OVER...i was so shameless abt it infront of her than went behind n cried like siao....i mean she was my best friend...then saw veeky tell susan n mahirah abt his mem card.....( obviously) abby nv cum canberra...onli i siying iskandar jianwen cainin jieying n mahirah went.... i was very unhappy at first...bt then iskandar n the rest cheered me up....went there n saw so many vain ppl....aiyo all th performers were vain...put make up la...hair spray...wear sun glasses la...also bring hair straightener to straighten the hair....walaoo...i like sukri...he sang a song n i liked it...another woah play the piano very well..then i fell in love with my curtain boy...i n mahirah take turns takin pic wif him....haha....well forget the concert la...VW YR SE(shaik esmail) n BY came...then after tat we left....we ran marathon 2 school sia...more like the cross country we missed.....hahaha.......coz we were the flower bearers n escorts for the teachers.....got back to school....my teacher mr.rahim...hot...fat...cute...chubby and handsome was very happy....haha..thx 2 me i guess...well than we had the concert were the worse was yet to come...durin abby's performance...i cried.......no i really cried...it took me fathiah and hams to calmo me down...weird sia...i really made her feel bad u noe...after school went smb primary could not fins mrs husainy...so sad....she transfered....n mrs.prakash left for home...well then met cai ning at mac for lucnh while susan n siying came by coincidence...hahaha....well tat was when things started to unfold.... i and tracia had started msging each other frm the start of the day...talkin abt stuff...well she claimed tat no rumors were spread n tat she did not suspect me...she was jus thinking how veeky's mem card cld hav gotton lost n stuff...part of the msgin took part in mac....n while tracia was in KFC wif QR....so well i wanted 2 say lots of stuff...bt was restircted becoz QR was wif her...i mean after all cai ning could be rite...she might hav been the mastermind.....well got back home...tracia was online...we talked...then veeky came...n i explained...he then got rey and were noth chattin then he disappererd...well i dunno wat 2 prove...i hav done my best...its up to them...i dun blame anyone...4 tis...after all i am a fox.....n a person who does nt deserve to be called a christian.....haha....a fox does not hav friends hor....well ya....i lost all my relationships except 2....i hope...well 1 thing i noe is tat cai ning is still mad....abt almost everthing...i dunno..they all got invloved...if it was nt for me...tis wld not have happened.....i hate myself...n i hate this fox....i am goin 2 let the matter rest dun let it bother me...i called abby but her mum said she was nt feelin well n was sleepin....well her mum sounded weird....i guess her mum knows also...haish....abby if u readin my blog plz call me...i won't sleep wifout hearin yr voice today...plz i am so sorry...i dun care even if u suspect me...after all i am a fox....but i wan 2 hear yr voice...hate me bt plz jus yr voice is wat i want 2 hear......... haish...no matter how hard i try to prove my innocence...tat i hav changed...sum ppl jus keep cumin up wif new ideas abt me.....talked to tracia today...she told me that veeky denied telling susan and mahirah....this says alot abt him...tracia claims tat she respects him for nt making it very big....bt hello...he did..almost...if susan n mahirah were nt supportive it wld hav gone sumwhere won't it....haish...so many problems.... now i am lost...veeky wanted to settle the prob wif me....n he said he does want to spoil our friendship....well i found out frm tracia tat sumthin abt my blog had reached mr.raj....haish...so i asked him abt it n he said tat in my blog i had kinda cursed QR and YR did not like it....so he said it was unfair that i shld nt get hurt....so he told him to tell mr.raj...VW asked BY if he shld n well obviously benson said yes...coz his YR is his bestie....i am nothing at all....well VW did...so mr.raj knows...then VW admittied tat he got angry becoz of my blog...n said tat QR actually told mrs.wee abt my past...n how did she know???well he said that it cld hav been natasha or esmail....then she also told him n rey abt susan's netball camp thingy...i was confused...well then he claims tat mahirah asked him 2 ask me....and susan told him abt the netball stuff....now who do i believe??? stuck la veni....she is so stuck....how cum susan had the time to tell VW today??? is VW kidding me?? i dun noe?? maybe i shld jus drop it now that its over....bt the bitterness remains...CN plans to surrender er position when school reopens...oh gosh...she feels that without the council her life wld be easier...nt sure la...lost n stuck...bt as usual...
