Let us start with yesterday shall we?? Well on Friday night I slept at like somewhere after 3am... I was watching some Korean movie and it was really touching and all. Hehe. Well anyway because of that, I woke up at like the time I was supposed to leave my house on Saturday. Saturday, yesterday is the Beach Brawl outing remember?
So Veni, was supposed to leave the house at 7am! And she woke up at 7am! LOL. Anyway, thank God, I prepared all my logistics and items I was supposed to carry the night itself, because usually I don't. Yeah, we were supposed to meet at 8am at Harbourfront MRT station, but I was late. Haha. So yeah, Kun Man was late too. LOL. Anyway they waited for me at the monorail itself and we got into it.
Our location was Sapphire Pavilion. But then, it seemed to have some kind of programme going on. All the chairs and all, and they already marked out the area. So we had to move to the front, Emerald Pavilion instead. So yeah, we started off with a word of prayer and we began setting up stuff.
I kinda felt Nick wasn't in the mood... He was like very aggressive in the way he spoke and all... Bothered me very much, but could not be bothered either! Anyway then the rest of the crusaders came in, and well we had about 20 at least including us. Our faith target, I guess, was not realistic at all. Anyway we split them up into 2 teams and they were manageable. Thank God. We started off with ice-breakers, the grid game, catch me if you can and the stand up game. All went well.
Then we moved on to the telematch. And that was when everyone went hay wire!! It was chaos and funny! LOL. Then we played fruit punch, it is captain's ball with fruits instead of a ball. We were supposed to start off with a papaya, but even before we began, Philip - I think, threw it very high in the air and it came down into a disgusting mess. We still used it to play though, haha, then used kiwi and bananas.
Then it was the game called the Final Faceoff. Where the teams go through a series of challenges at each station and yeah, complete it. LOL. Another chaos la.
Finally we had the chill-ax session where we played the twine game, say something about what you learned in crusade, during PDA or DG and then hold on tightly to the end, then when you are done saying, throw it to someone else. The game carries on that way. In the end, you should have like formed a web and Nick will lay on it to test if it strong. Haha. Well it was awesome. Then time to wash up. But before that, some of the guys, carried nick and threw him into the sea. LOL. Poor kid!
Well washing up was a different feeling. I mean Sentosa toilet is like so clean!!! Very clean!!! Haha
Then we went for lunch. There was this coffee shop opposite Harbour Front station and yeah the food was great. Um, I managed to get to know Fransina & Grace a bit better. We are the only 3 indian girls in crusade. Haha. Ivin sat with us and we crapped around la.
After lunch, we went our separate ways. Um, Philip, Arun, Cheryl, Alyssa, Tiffany, Xin Xuan, Fransina & me went in the train together. Arun, a year 3 was actually a chindian and I thought all this while, his name was aroon and he was some other race. Haha. Arun Gopinathan. Haha. He kept telling me he was French!! Well he stayed in woodlands, so he kinda like showed me and Fransina how to use the circle line and it was so funny just talking to him. Very logical person but lame too. Haha.
I got home, then slept after a while of slacking on the net. Then woke up to check my email! And I was surprised when I saw someone's name!
Drake Bernard Richardson! I nearly cried out loud!! Only God knows how much I loved him! And when I was trying to move on, he came back!! It was my fault. If only I didn't email him... He simply replied me saying he was trying to move on too. That I was too conservative and he did have regrets about not making it work... But then he came online, and everything changed!! We were like chatting so happily... He brought a huge smile to my face, saying those beautiful things to me... The only 2 people who supported me was Ian & Luqman! I just got overcome by loneliness all the while, that I just lost my mind!! I mean, I really thought he is the man! But he is not! I haven't told him yet... I mean, he thinks I love him, well yes I do, but we are not meant for each other... I need to break that to him soon. Or he'll go crazy too... Why did I fall for him?? He started it all, saying those sweet things to me, making me feel like no one made me feel before... He loved me!! I could see it! Feel it! But I know, that this is not what God wants for me... He has better plans for me... I am disappointed that he won't get a chance to hear me out... Maybe I should tell him... Maybe I should not. Because I might make things worse! Drake is the best thing that happened in my teenage life, but apparently, we are not made for each other, too much differences and all. Yes I used to tear up, get moody when he didn't reply me and at that time I saw other couples... We had planned so much you know! What we would do when he comes to Singapore later this year... He planned to get me a ring, which he would slip into my fingers, and how we would seal it with a kiss! Gosh, so cheesy you know! I mean I used to hate kissing, and I was totally agreeing with him! Man, how much changes he brought into me! Good or bad, I learned alot... I had so much hopes for a better life, and yes I am living it! But you know, I think I have a long way to go before I find that someone. Man, I could not take it for that 1 month gap, and I'm thinking if I can go on with this, but yes, I have to. I need the will power. And I have to draw everything from God himself! I think he is very proud of the decision I made today.
Father, its just you and me for a long time... I love my daddy =)
Well Philip kinda asked me if I wanted to lead the crusade in worship during PDA on Wednesday. It was all such a rush for me you know. So yeah, I asked him for some time, and once I'm sure about my worship songs, I'm going for it. Yippee!!
Church crusade & youth rally is coming next month. Um, like in about less than 2 weeks. Haha. And holidays is in 2 weeks too. Um, many things to do. From tomorrow onwards, me and the team would be sending out flyers to the areas designated to us. So yeah, after school, I'll stay back for sometime till about 7, then head straight to our meeting point.
