It's really stupid! I am really stupid! I mean I studied Social Studies and I was misinterpreting the situation wrongly all these while... LTTE lost! and that is depressing!! I mean LTTE was simply fighting for the Tamils in that country and I mistook the whole thing. And I deeply feel for that. Though some part of the country is rejoicing, there is another majority that is suffering. So many people are fighting to be alive. Streets are filled with unburied dead bodies... I mean what the heck is the government thinking? Why aren't you people treating everyone equally? Why treat the Tamil's like slave? They are not helping and not letting other countries help either...
The Tamils are suffering and the government officers are trying to get rid of them. So what if Prabahkaran is dead. Justice hasn't died. You people are making a huge mistake taking what belongs to the Tamils. Countries are coming in to help the Tamils and you are trying not to let aid reach them. People have no food, no supplies, no medication. Did you spare a thought for the little kids who at this age are supposed to be leading a carefree life, studying, playing and living it not being orphaned, seeing blood and dead bodies everyday. What about the old people who are supposed to be happily retiring, they would be seeing their family, friends all dying! And those who had dreams... Dreams of getting married, starting their family. Dreams of making ends meet for their family. You crushed lives and dreams. People pregnant with dreams and you killed them along with it. What kind of human are you people! It's not the time to fight for territories. You people are just strangers who came into their land and now you have dreams to take it over?? No sense!!! Prabahkaran fought till the end, his soon too. But I tell you, this is not the end...
I guess world leaders should all come together and have some peace talk with this heck of a country! No right for them to make the king of the lands be slaves!! People are dying, starving and there are some having fun, thinking its over. But its not... I'm telling you, God is going to stir the country!!
Man I was really hurt today when I went in for cell group and my Pastor started praying for the Tamils in Sri Lanka. I was like, what world is Pastor in... Everything is over... Then I started to think. My social studies topic started coming to mind and then I remembered. Prabahkaran fought for the Tamils rights. The only mistake he did was killing Rajiv Ghandhi. But besides that, he wanted equal rights in the country... Hais...
I somehow have started hating my lectures already... My school mates are really inconsiderate and they disrupt other's learning and it has deeply saddened me. Leave school mates aside, even classmates are talking and all... I mean I know you guys are smart and you already know what is going on, but us?? We have no prior knowledge to what the heck is going on. And you can still scold me when I refused to talk to you!! Did you know how vulgar you were! I simply told you to shut the hell up and you can say such things to me?! This is it man, I'm never ever going to treat you as a friend again. You'll just be my hi, bye classmate and sadly, just like that tard, I'll have to see your freeking face!
I feel so hurt when my own friends turn and laugh at me. I feel so hurt when my own friends don't stand up for me. I feel so hurt when my own friends don't speak up for me. I feel so hurt when my own friends associate with someone I hate and agree with what he says. I feel so hurt when my own friends never take a word I say seriously. I feel so hurt when my own friends say something in front of me and something else behind my back. I feel so hurt when my own friends are just people who fade away.
Well, I've learned to not to bring people too close to your heart... Basically you can learn just so much with so little time... Don't you get pissed when people around you know how much you hate him, and then when he makes fun of you, they sit there along side him and laugh too instead of standing up for you. They make it seem like they are on your side, but they sneak giggles and they snicker when you are made fun of... What is the point of saying that he is a bastard and all in front of me, and then partake in his bullshit. I'm not angry or whatsoever. Just that I had enough I guess... It is horrible when people say you can't take jokes when in fact, they aren't making it seem like a joke! I mean heck you, I'm not sensitive ok! You should make it sound like a joke, not say things like you mean them, then what happens? You piss me off!!
Gosh who knew poly life can be so dramatic! I have realised one thing though, that making friends maybe an important part of life, but making them last is important luh! I came across someone's blog and I can't agree more with what was stated. You know that a person is not your friend the moment their actions bring you down...
And from now on, I know where my priorities lie and where I have to go. So basically I just have to shove off all the dirt in my path and move on.
Have to end off with this. Thanks Jash for mentioning this to me. You can break a girl who thinks nothing of you. So basically, whoever you maybe, whether you are smarter, elder or whatever heck, you don't, can't and won't break me because I think nothing of you!
I feel so much better now. Can't wait for tomorrow. Hopefully our CS re-enactment works out.
