HiHi. I'm currently painting my nails to match my suit colour for the wedding reception, and I need them to dry before I use another coat, so I thought I would come on and make a short post. I'll be off to JB tomorrow. And I'm already so excited. Haha.
I got a letter from a pen pal who happens to live in JB as well. It was really nice to know that I have a pen pal who is a Christian.
It was sad when Alana converted. And it hurts when who knows so much about the true God and converts. It was a huge blunder she made of her life, I wanted to tell it to her. But a good friend would never ever want to break another's heart. But a true friend even though it would hurt, wants to tell her how she feels.
I'm not a true friend. I'm sorry for that Alana. I was really excited when I knew you were a christian, but now, the excitement died down after knowing you are not the same anymore. I'm not a religionist or racist or whatever. It's just that I wanted to let you know a person who was a christian and had converted would suffer the punishment twice that of a christian itself. I really don't know what you were thinking when you did it. I could just have not bothered about it, but inside, my soul can't find peace. I just did not know how to tell you. In fact I accepted you half heartedly, with hope that you would not carry on further with it. I wanted to kick myself when I encouraged you with those websites to help you.
Religion does not matter, I have many friends of different religion. But to think that you converted was really heart breaking. I don't know how to tell you how I felt, and I hope you are reading my blog now because I had no other way of telling you. It does not feel the same way writing you a letter then when I did. Now I have no idea whether I would write you anymore letter because I've hid my true feelings towards you.
Which ever the case, I'm sorry Alana because you are missing a lot in life at the moment. You are missing out on true love. You are missing out on eternal life. You are missing out on Jesus Christ. You would say I'm bull shitting now, but think back Alana, when you planned to convert, were there any hindrances. Things that could have caused accidents, many things would have gone wrong right? It's not meant to be Alana. It's not the will of God to do what you did. The life you are living now is not meant to be. And I can't pretend like I agree with what you do, because I don't. I don't think your grandmother and aunty would have wanted this to happen to you. I bet your parents would still be hurting inside, because they would have to answer to God about you.
I'm sorry if I said things that were not supposed to be said. But I did not have any other choice. I don't want God to question me on why I did not convince you about the blunder you made. But today, he would know that I atleast tried.
I love my superhero lightening, and I want her back.
