Ok im seriously freaked out today... i have no idea what's happening to my life... not sure if its god's grace for me to be where i am...
i just went thru the whole day praying tat I wld nt have to go thru pain n hurt... and i think i got my wish in the end...
the whole day went thru fine until as we all noe someone started giving bad remarks abt me again... well i was glad that veeky n gang left me some popcorn from saturday's barbecue... thanks guys... then im glad it rained as we cld skip netball training during recess... well then it was time for us to get ready for the tournament... came down n expected that someone to be lonely coz her friend didn't make it 2dae... but then she made some other friends... n started chanting blacky when i was near her... i just went to the toilet n started weeping tell god tat it has to end but i can't tell mr.tamil or it might get worse...n im sure god listened to me... he always does but this time it was faster... we went to singapore sports school for the netball match against st.nicholas sec. they were quite good... i shld admit that i mus have done things better... but i just spoiled stuff... we scored 2 which was scored by me... only 2… arghh so mad... but i was cool... well after the match something unexpected happened... a coach just approached me n mr.tamil n called us aside asking me to join this TALENT IDENTIFICATION PROGRAM... i was lost as always but mr.tamil told me to write my name n the coach then passed me a post card... on the way mr.tamil explained tat i was chosen for the WORLD NETBALL CHAMPIONSHIPS 2011... for tat they have selection trials which i wld have to attend on 15th march 2008... if i performed well then i get in... cool huh?? but i was nt even 1% keen in it... mr.tamil said tat he wld train me for the next 3-4 weeks for the carnival... which is on 23rd feb 2008... he said tat if i showed improvement n did well he wld tell me tat i can go for it... even if i don i guess i wld still have to go... but i wld only want to go after making a mark improvement... 1st mr.tamil said tat on thur he wld train me on breaking away from my opponent... well tat was something i really had to work on... next was my jumping... i dun wan to let the ppl who chose me for the selection trials becoz of my height down... i will work hard but 1st i have to find out n pray to god asking for help...
on the way back Susan n Rebecca told mr.tamil abt tat someone named pei fen always calling me names... he called me n said tat whenever any idiot calls me any name i shld tell him... he said he wld take care of it even if it got worse... so tat was how i think the problem is solved... i hope so... well now i have work to finish so I gtg…
